balikblogger

ok. so i am 'balik'-ing to canada. i am returning, so to speak, to my home and native land of canada...eh. i'm taking a 9 month contract at much music where i will not be 'direk' but i will be a pr-editor. editor plus producer. preditor vs aliens part 3. while toronto feels the same, i know i'm not. so we'll see how this experiment goes. i figure i will treat this contract as a 9 month paid scholarship in mass media, avid editing, working in a 'team' environment, and whatever else much more music has to teach. anyways. my chest has been hurting for the last week at the prospect of leaving my wonderful life, family and friends in manila, but there were too many serendipitous (sp?) events that conspired to keep my ass in canada, with wifey, family, snow etc. i'm also feeling i'm meant to bring back to the pinoys ober here all the things i learned ober der. i am gonna keep the apartment (to the tune of papa don't preach...i'm gonna keep my baby). ohhh...gonna keep the apartment. anyways. almost done my humber gig. going now.

had fun today at work. this is my composer/musical director gig for the graduating class of Humber College theatre students. it's fun because i can be as much of a delinquent as i want because i'm neither student or teacher. of course i deliver the goods, but i play by my own rules. school rules! coming from the university drop out... it's funny because education is the way my dad made it out of paranaque manila. and his eldest child is a drop out who is building a career in the philippines. i figure i have the equivalent of a couple of degrees. there was once a day when i was an enthusiastic theatre student at york. woah. i wonder who from my class is doing it. god. theatre...well...it's paying my bills so yeay theatre. toronto is freezing.

at home playing guitar hero on ps2 with my sisters. this game is totally the most addictive. i'm typing to still my eyes. sony... i'm so happy to be in frigid small town kingston. happy to be with the family in the home i spent my youth in. so grounding. so humbling. i type this in a warm, plush, electronic reclining chair. slowly it leans back and is perfect posture. this was nans chair. it still smells like her. just saw the movie perfume, and was reminded the power of scent. nan is so tangible in this smell. more than in a picture or video. it's comforting. in kingston i feel like time stills. like i can step out of life and enter this one, which is more and more feeling like a dream sequence. god bless everyone this christmas. through our trials and joys.

hay naku. again, just when faith was being restored in manila...a bomb goes off. literally. got a text from my roommate that a bomb went off in glorietta mall..he saw people screaming, crying, and this is not in the far reaches of the philippines. this is just there...in what is our equivalent of 'the eatons centor'. man. and its so weird how casual people are about it. how people are already laughing. how people don't even miss a beat. god, i know if this shit happened in toronto, the whole city would stop. anyways, to all those who hear about it and are wondering if i'm ok. i'm ok. i'm working. i'm healthy. i'm fine. but wow. bombs at the mall. song title... kawawa our nation. r

me and odie were nominated for urian awards for our work on Ang Pamana. that's nice, me as editor, odie as d.p., but our sound should have been nominated...if anything, our sound and niccos performance. anyways...but we will rep every single person who worked on it. even if we don't win and i'm asleep in the audience by best supporting actor...i go for all of us. if it was just for me i would skip it...but if there's a chance that i can big up everyone if i get to the podium...i will. http://www.gawadurian.com/ anyways...that's that.

my BFF sent me this. everyone needs to see this. very important. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNLcwqUOXfQ. noel, if you're reading this, jotham needs to see it!

the new doc is up. smokey mountain. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5ybvqE94K4 it's nice. i put it up not really having any expectations on response, and i received a note from someone who i went to elementary school with in kingston ontario, where the film worked like a 'wake up' call to her material problems. anyways, you'd think that i would stop stressing over financials after seeing something like that...anyways. enjoy and pass it around. - r